I believe in heaven, because I’ve been there! Heaven is an energy. The spectrum of emotion exists, and that means the worst feelings exist (Hell energy) and the best (Heaven) exist, too. I also believe it’s a physical place, maybe even a planet or its own separate dimension (or both).
My experience of Heaven happened at my slummy James Parkway apartment in Nebraska. It had nothing to do with a physical location. For me, the energy lasted for about a Summer. I did not leave my apartment, but I experienced euphoria that I wish there were other comparisons for, but drugs are what come to mind.
After May 5th of 2021, I paced around my apartment for weeks and weeks. Everything made sense. This was who I was meant to be, and what I had been waiting for my entire life. I have struggled with serious addictions in the past.
I chased euphoria for much of my life, desperate to believe that the happiness I experienced could be more than fleeting. I hated the dire consequences of drugs.
What I was always seeking was God, plain and simple. God was with me on 505 and I know that, because the Joy was so pure that only God or godly, angelic forces could be responsible. However, it was also scary because there were demonic presences attracted to me from the start.
The drug ecstasy creates soaring euphoria. It makes it feel like, for once, everything is exactly how it’s supposed to be. There are no words to describe how confident it can make you feel. But the substance can have side effects such as jaw clenching and emotionally difficult comedowns. Ecstasy has a very nasty hangover.
The bliss I felt was more intensely euphoric than any ecstasy high could ever be, more inspiring than any psychedelic trip, and more energizing than straight-up methamphetamine. Without the comedown. The feeling was similar to the way that people describe those drugs.
It was like every blissful euphoric drug peak that every human has ever experienced, combined. And I am not exaggerating! There are no words big enough to describe the happiness I felt. I’ve been trying to figure it out ever since!
I do not think of it as mania. I think of it as spiritual bliss that was given to me for an important reason, to show me what’s possible, and to give me something to strive for. Mania has a crash, but I didn’t have a crash. What I had was pure bliss for weeks and weeks with occasional spikes of intense supernatural DREAD that turned into a rollercoaster of emotions.
It started as Heaven with jolts of Hell and turned into Heaven and Hell back and forth before I settled at a somewhat negative but far more stable and predictable baseline of emotion by Autumn.
Cloud 9
On 505, I was indescribably happy. Everything felt perfect, and God felt very close. This bliss happened as a result of knowledge that I am choosing to keep to myself for now, but it also had to do with the appearance of an entity, a comforting guardian spirit.
People who know about synchronicity might be surprised to learn that it can predict the future. Before I went to Cloud 9 on 505, the happiest I had felt before was an ecstasy peak. Since this day, I have felt a presence with me on and off. But when that presence initially appeared on 505, it felt familiar from childhood.
So, before 505, I saw the term “Cloud 9” around all over the place. It seemed to appear everywhere I turned, even in a show I was watching. When I first saw it, I thought, “I’d like that to reappear as a meaningful synchronicity, to remind me that becoming happier is possible.” It seemed to appear in response. It showed up again and again from March to May.
When the euphoria hit, I recalled the appearance of Cloud 9 over the previous weeks. I have an interesting relationship with whatever causes synchronicity.
Once, I was sitting in my brother’s living room watching TV and wondering about the source of synchronicity. Does it just happen automatically, or is there a mind behind it? The very next moment, This appeared on the movie I was watching:
Lux is my nickname and musician name (LuX PhD). I could not believe it and still can’t!
Psychosis, or Spiritual Awakening?
One major reason I believe that spiritual gifts are often labeled as mental illness in our society is the fact that many individuals with schizophrenia or psychosis report heightened perceptions of meaningful coincidences (synchronicities). Synchronicities have a higher source.
I consider them the language of these forces. People often start to notice an increase in synchronicity during spiritually significant periods of time. When they first start to happen to people, they are often overwhelmed. This is what has led to people seeking therapy and the trope of the schizo person who sees messages in the TV.
That person probably really is seeing certain words an impossible number of times. When synchronicities happen to you to this degree, it’s clearly supernatural. But it’s a misconception that synchronicities are always meaningful or helpful.
Demonic forces and trickery are real. Seeing someone’s name around a lot does not mean they’re your soulmate. Seeing the word messiah around does not mean you’re the messiah. It’s not that simple or straightforward. I always saw synchronicities as a sign that things are not what they appear to be. I’ve always found it wise to assume as little as possible.
In my experience, synchronicity can reflect your desires. It can also show you significant themes for your life. In this video, Montalk describes different types of synchronicity such as automatic/mechanical or fear-based. If you’ve experienced a lot of syncs yourself, I definitely encourage you to check it out.
